A sensitive soul that blossomed into a wild flower. I can remember a time when I was so good at hiding behind other people’s shadows. I tried to fit in. Kind of like how wild flowers would mix in with weeds, yet even in that, they still stood out. Interestingly enough, by definition, wild flowers grew freely without human intervention. See, I was that wild flower blending in with weeds, trying to hide my true identity. Suppressing the very things that’s innate within me. The gifts that God bestowed upon me. I didn’t have a voice and didn’t know who I was. I was told by others what I should or shouldn’t be. Although God gave me an identity, I was still so insecure and unsure of myself. I even convinced me once upon a time that I wasn’t good enough and that my gifts and talents aren’t needed. I believed that I had no purpose and didn’t belong. I thought that my past mistakes forever marked me and deemed me unworthy of anything great and successful. As a result of my mindset, all sorts of unwanted doors opened up leading me to more hurt and caused greater pain. I also attracted those like me…and we all stuck to each other like glue, we were broken people trying to lead each other…a recipe for disaster, we were each other’s God, but I broke free. I even allowed the ill advices and wrong opinions of those closest to me to infiltrate my soul and grieve it. Undeniably, my life was a rough one, however it’s been an awesome journey as well. I know God had his hands on me when I was blind and deaf spiritually…Now, today, and every day, I walk in total freedom and complete peace. Once, there was a slab of concrete placed over me. That concrete represented low self-esteem, insecurity, doubt, and fears. Its sole intentions were to stifle me and keep me from growing and knowing my identity. It tried to silence my voice and shut me off, but like the wild flower that I am, I broke through the concrete and now I stand tall. In the most rarest form, I stand tall and unshakable. This little wild flower broke through and now stands victoriously. Yes, this wild flower has bloomed into the woman you see today. It wasn’t an easy journey, but by God’s grace, I’m making it, day by day.
For those that are lost and don’t know who your are, no need to fret, God knows who you are…keep pushing through and you’ll break free.
-Blessed and chic
